for the family pet mouse Cocoa who died a horribly painful, protracted death many years ago because of my deep illness at that time, we still grieve for her.
For the cats in my life I abused, for the horse who was taken away from me because I neglected him, I still have pain over this from when I was in high school.
For the cats in my life whom I loved so much.
I was so ill all my life and neglected myself that I didn’t know how to care for my pets and it is still so overwhelmingly painful for me. Somehow I knew how to take care of my son but my mother wouldn’t let me. I am turning back into a child living without my ex-husband to protect me from my family and don’t know what to do, especially for my son, who stays with my parents partly because I don’t have the means to provide for him.