I’m currently in the process of applying to pharmacy schools. Also, since I dropped a class Thursday, my mom has been furious with me. As many of you know, she has always been emotionally abusive. I’m a Myers-Briggs INTJ, a very rare and misunderstood breed, especially among females. I was the kind of kid and teenager that excelled at school, but always got in trouble for questioning the rules. My mom always saw me as a horrible child and mentally ill because I never responded well to the authorarian style parenting she grew up with. I never really respected her that much because, even as a kid, I saw she was irrational. For example, she wanted me to dump my first boyfriend because he was short and a ginger. She always accused me of being autistic despite ever expert she showed me to saying otherwise. To her, only people who mental can enjoy their own company.
Anyway, today she screamed at me to get out of the house and yelled at my dad for never doing anything around the house. She told us that I am never allowed at her funeral and that her love for the family dog is the only reason she has not killed her self yet. Dad told me I am not going anywhere and defended me against her. So, for the rest of the summer until I go back to school, I’m pretty much going to be hanging out in public libraries and coffee shops until Dad gets home from work because I’m afraid to be in my own home.
Also, I have a advanced physiology class I need to make up work for before I start school again. I ended Fall quarter last year with three incompletes because my mom’s hostility ruined my performance and this is the last incomplete I have to take care of. She is such a monster that I had this hanging over my head for about a year because she kept screaming at me that I am a defective human being and a bad daughter.
So, yeah, pray for my school, application, and family situation.