I was layed off in 2010, when I worked as a power plant mechanic and welder, for a contract company. The money was good, but there where no opertunitites for that type of profession, unless you want to be a road gypsie.
I went back to school to get my engineering degree, thinking that things would change significantly for me. When I went for an internship with my old co workers at a new plant,
it was like instant remorse.
My father also worked for the same company, that is riddled with a heavy drug culture, and rampid alcoholism. When I first went back to school, I thought that if I prayed hard enough, and worked hard enough and really believed I " could do anywhere I want through Christ". Just like the testimonies I have heard of numerous people.
I really at the time wanted a career change, but my old employeers, contacted me, and job scouts, telling me, “It will be differnt with that engineering degree”. But the last year when I went for my internship, I was back to the same zero growth, cave man job skills, of beating metal on metal and lifting heavy things.
I was un able to get out of bed for the past month, where I live, and it had cause me to drop my classes for the summer. I have become severly depressed, that, no matter how many 14-18 hour days of studying I put in. I will always have a 2.5 gpa, and God will never help me. It has cause me to become severly depressed, and often i want to walk out into traffic. Church and prayer does not help me, because I lost my faith at the University where I learned how quality of life works.
I guess my main question is, I can not function, working with “Tough guys” I can not stand people with tattooed sleeves, and ignorant people whom, think that learning a trade in the information age, is a way to make a living. I have violent fits of rage, if I am in the presense of alcoholics and pot heads, which the energy industry seems to cater to.
Has anyone else had this trouble ? I could go into more complex detail, but this is a long post already. Are their any engineers here? That can give me insite on your life style? or Co workers? I do nto want to spend my life working with pot heads whom are rewarded at work for their deviancy. I worked at a Reliant Energy Plant for like 10 years and it was so corrrupt. Everyone used to do meth, and share their wives. When the plant manager was informed that there was a meth lab in the building, he said he did not care, as long as his plant was running.
Can someone give me an insite on their quality of life as an engineer? I feel like I have emotional trauma or somthing. I have constant flash bulb memories, where I see my father coming home from the power company and he is constantly misrible. Everyone works like 60 hours a week because they hate their wives. I would sell my soul tongiht to be a pharmacist or physician assitant. Ect. …
Thanks for your responses and time.