A quick rundown. I am 27 years old. I was addicted to pornography from the age of 14 to about 24 years old. I then decided to go back to Church and by the grace of God I found freedom from this sin. However, I still had the problem of masturbation. I still struggle with this. I am improving, as it went from a daily habit to a once a week problem.
I started going out with ‘Sara’ roughly 3 months ago. Sara is a great influence, a nice person, she says her rosary morning and night. We are committed to living a chaste lifestyle. Unfortunately, we both gave way to temptation last night and had premarital sex. We both enjoy a glass of alcohol from time to time but we were in too cheerful of a mood last night and we both had a glass too many. We both fell to temptation. We have talked about it and we agreed we need to set better boundaries.
I guess I am getting frustrated that I still have sexual sin. It took awhile to get over the pornography addiction. I understand this is one of the most common forms of sin. I know what I NEED to do. It’s just a matter of doing it. I am going to confession to atone for my sin last night. Please pray that I remain strong in Christ and that I don’t forget in the dark what I remembered in the light. It’s just a little discouraging. When I walk in the light I feel so at peace with Christ but when I fall to temptation it’s like God is miles away.