Your signature says it all:
“I tell you that you have less to suffer in following the Cross than in serving the world and its pleasures.”
As a 19 year old guy myself, I often found myself in conflict with the words and actions I exhibited and my beliefs. It was quite the obstacle to overcome, but instead of going to drinking parties, accepting drugs, laughing along with crude jokes, and acting carelessly - I chose Jesus.
I knew I couldn’t be lukewarm - Either you are for God, or you live in sin. So, I decided to detach from myself over the years of verbal, physical, and mental occasions of sin. I never really had friends and rarely found kids that shared the same values I lived for. But, I still talked to people - but I had my limits. I would never make fun of people, swear, hate another person, or hurt someone - even if I was pressured by my ‘friends’ around me.
I stopped following the ‘crowd’ - I knew I was an individual and above everything a child of God that walked as if I was a one-man army. I only needed strength from the Lord to overcome all the obstacles that were in front of me. I wasn’t going to conform to society and the ideals this world glorifies in.
Romans 12:2 - And **be not conformed **to his world. But be ye transformed by the renewal of you mind, that ye may prove what is good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.
Remember, it won’t be easy trying to detach yourself from the world:
Luke 9:23-25 - And he said to them all, If any man will come after me, let him **deny **himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow me.
The world will make fun of you, humiliate you, and even hate you. Remember:
“If the world hates you, keep in mind that it hated me first. If you belonged to the world, it would love you as its own. As it is, you do not belong to the world, but I have chosen you out of the world. That is why the world hates you.” – John 15:18-19
You are a child of God - someone special to Him. Just know that there are others - the entire Christian world that is suffering through the same ordeals of conflict as you are.
“Cast all your anxiety on him, because he cares for you. Discipline yourselves, keep alert. Like a roaring lion your adversary the devil prowls around, looking for someone to devour. Resist him, steadfast in your faith, for you know that your brothers and sisters in all the world are undergoing the same kinds of suffering. And after you have suffered for a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, support, strengthen, and establish you.” - 1 Peter 5:7-10
When you fight this thing till the end - you will emerge in glory for God! Your soul will be rewarded for the firm faith you have had and the willingness to follow the will of God.
You can choose as you wish, but just remember that worldly pleasures are only temporary. You can be the richest person alive on Earth - it means nothing after death.
Keeping your soul holy to the will of God will result in eternal happiness.
Mark 8:36 - "For what does it profit a man, to *gain the whole world *and forfeit his life?
Praying for the Lord’s strength to fill you!