Ok, some o fyou know what has been going from other threads- so I took my dh back in hope of reconciling and it has really be up and down. I gave him three conditions, only one of which has he been living up to. He stopped going to mass again. He went out all night this weekend. We have such little money that I am going without food some days even though I am the one working and he is running a business that is failing. He refuses to get a second job and right now I am looking at a third.
Next fall I have decided to use my VA benefits and go back to school. I told him this would have given him a year working on his issues which he is still going back and forth between taking responsibility for and blaming on me. He is getting very angry again. I do not feel secure. I do feel safe as I have learned to recognize the signs that I didn’t before and leave the situation but it is rough.
I told him if he can’t get it together and treat me like some semblance of a human being by then I will not be coming back. I know that I do qualify for an anullment based on what my priest and deacon that did our marriage have told me. I am upset but I know I am doing my best but I must protect my sould and my relationship with the Lord.