I know a recap of my academic life is far from interesting, but I would like to share my story just so you know where I am at:
I started college 14 years ago at 18 - right out of high school. The college was a small branch of a larger University . I had NO clue what to major in. It seemed like such a big decision to pick my profession at 18 yrs old. I knew that science & math were not my strong subject, I chose Elementary Education. I felt that it was a major I could do good in & it seemed interesting. I had to take a communications class & suddenly realized that I had a great fear of public speaking - it really suprised me how fearful I was, I dreaded it to the point I made myself sick. I hated it! I actually dropped my communications class & began thinking that teaching may not be for me. I floated thru for another semester & eventually transferred to a community college where I changed my major to pharmacy technician. I was working at a local pharmacy & it seemed like a good fit for me. Well I had a long commute to school & started skipping classes. I wasnt focused on my studies, so once again I stopped taking classes. After this, I moved to a new city & returned to the University (this time the main campus) I started at out of high school. I was now 24, I attended two semesters, but was put on academic probabation due to poor grades & attendance. My academic couselor advised me to finish my education elsewhere. Well I switched to a community college (again) & was faced with having to decide on a major again? I chose health information technology (medical coding), not sure why? I got good grades & made the deans list - but was just ho-hum about my major. After several semesters, we decided to move out of state. So I never finished! After establishing my residency in my new state, I transferred to a community college with my major. The closest college offering my degree was 70 miles away, so I did the distance learning thing, I was working full time too. I guess Im not an ideal distance learner because I didnt do that well. I attended a couple of semesters & eventually stopped taking classes.
Between then & now, Ive started my family. I still work full time. My job is unsatisfying & not challenging. I leave each day work day feeling drained! Im 20 thousand dollars in student debt & dont have a degree - that bums me out!
Ive tried to settle & put this college thing to rest! I just refuse to believe all the negative things I keep telling myself. (you wont finish, you cant do it, you’ll fail) There is something driving me to give this another shot. I really want to enrich my life & do something fulfilling as a career,
So here I am now - almost 32 years old. Mom to our beautiful 21 month old & happily married! Ive come a long way in 14 years. Ive matured a lot, so I feel that as an adult learner I would take this more seriously.
I dont know what Im looking for by posting this? Advice, encouragment, someone sharing my experience. Thanks for reading!