I have always believed that God will never allow a person to go through more than thay can take. I get a job and miraculous things happen. Example, this job I have with youth at risk, A youth wanted to die, he just happened to be the son of a Judge. I did what the Lord had me do and he now is doing a course, and in response the judge set our centre up to gain $70,000.
This happens every where I go, the changes happen so speadily I’m told not to counsell my way because theres no money because people see me once or twice and are better. .Children on the verge of being kicked out of school are next change for the better, gaining recognition in the school, gangs changing people asking how this happens, I know it is God, but why so much jealousy, I thought people would love to have a person around to cause change, but no.
What nappens is that each job lasts only one and a half years and I lose it and the same thing happens in the next, as I said miricals, Gods providence…and then jealousy comes through the leaders seeing what happens and down the road I go.I am so frustrated (and this is my humaness) I love how the Lord uses me, The spirit in me is so strong it causes change, but then i am flattened when just when I enjoy the job I get the words that I might be down the road.
This at times is very hard to take when you have youth trying to get rid of you even though they would not have a home if I did not have them here. And yet I know that I am here to cause change , more in the spirit than the mind, but I’ve been told that if a youth attacks again and I restrain again then I lose my job.
I have been favoured in that I have had beautiful visions of Our Lord through songs I write about Him, He guides me so joyously, sometimes I end up on my knees through His pouring His spirit into me and I can’t other than cry it is so overpowering. When I’m with people Gods word pores out of me even if I have not got my bible there and its all empowering words from anywhere in the bible and always connects up with old testement and the new testement revealing Jesus Christ. At times I listen and learn from what comes out of my mouth, I’m no mystic, just a person God uses. I go through so much hardship but I seem to see the power of God through it.
But why the jealousy and inability to keep jobs after the people I work fore being blessed???
I know God uses me to cause change but I am frustrated that this job change happens so often when provideence and or miricals happen. I’m frustrated. what is happening