I am 22 year old college student and back when I was in high school I discerned religious life for a few years (maybe 2?) and then at the end of my senior year in high school I decided that it wasn’t for me. Since then religious life has been “off my radar” (but not really).
So, this lent I decided to ramp up my spiritual activities by going to daily mass, adoration, rosary and doing spiritual reading. The the results thus far, however, have lead me to start thinking about religious life again. However, I can’t help thinking that being a religious sister would be to restricting for my personality (I would most certainly be a cranky nun). I sometimes think that if I was a man, I would probably become a priest but I’m not so I cant.
So my dilemma is that I want to devote myself to Christ and his church but I don’t want to be a nun (unless I was the mother superior I could see myself doing that…sort of…). I have given a bit of thought to being a missionary but that still doesn’t sit perfectly with me. I’m really confused. I know A LOT about religious life but I just can’t seem to find something that fits. Do you have any suggestions?