So - I have been thinking a lot about this - and something today in the reading at mass prompted me to go ahead and ask the question.
Their sins and their evildoing
I will remember no more.
Where there is forgiveness of these, there is no longer offering for sin.
Hebrews 10: 17-18
I get the whole - you go to confession with contrition and your sins are forgiven. Done deal.
I also have heard that once you make these confessions - that God actually forgets these sins… such as from above passage.
I have learned a lot recently about God’s mercy. But I find myself somewhat confused about some things…maybe I am relying too much on semantics here.
Whenever I am hit with any feelings of sadness, anger, guilt, and so forth about my past choices - I try to immediately reflect on His mercy. I remember that His mercy is always there - for all of us. I draw upon these thoughts to help me to rid myself of all that pain, when it comes up.
As I have been frequenting mass more - when we call to mind our sins at the beginning and right before communion when we say “Lord, I am not worthy to receive you…” - I feel that I am always calling to mind and thinking about my painful past.
So I guess what I am trying to get at is that I feel I am constantly drawing upon God’s mercy to continue to ease my pain and give me healing - however - if God has already forgotten what I have done, is what I am doing wrong? Or maybe better stated - is there even mercy available for a sin that is forgiven/forgotten?