I’m trying desperately to discern God’s will for me and am having no luck at all. Let me give you a little background. My husband and I got married when we were 20 years old and our first child was born 7 months later. Do the math. Ten years later we had two more children.
We were married for 16 years with three children when he developed a love affair with a coworker but said that they did not have sex, just body rubs he said.:mad: However, when I told him he needed to break it off with her he told me that he didn’t want to hurt her, never mind hurt me, and that she was all he could think about. So I divorced him and they moved in together. Eventually I received a degree of nullity from the Church. That was 6 years ago.
We get along fine and the kids go back and forth with no trouble and he even gets me birthday presents, probably because she and I have the same birthday and he feels guilty. Anyway, after a couple of years they stopped living together but remain a couple still and whenever we do our kids’ birthday parties at a public place she shows up. I went through a very difficult time after the divorce with depression and then I lost my job.
I have since moved on with my life, reverted back to the Church and love the mass and sacraments, have good friends, fun, and am now in graduate school. Since my reversion I’ve come to understand that perhaps I was hasty in divorcing him, even though he was a scoundrel, and that my children are still so very hurt. I want my family back together. I keep getting this nagging feeling that I should ask him to come back home and I keep asking God to give me a sign because the nagging feeling could just be my own feelings of guilt and loneliness. No sign from Our Lord so far though. A big NO blasted from the sky would be helpful. There may not even be the remotest chance that he would want to get back with me and I would just be making a fool of myself.
Has anyone ever heard of this kind of thing happening and the couple eventually remarried and it lasted? And does anyone have suggestions about how to discern God’s will concerning this kind of thing?