I’m a fairly routine person, and it’s a routine which I’m sure many of you are quite familair with, as well. All the basics are included: eating, sleeping, working, etc. It gets to be pretty mundane, doesn’t it? While I inwardly groan at the ordinariness of everyday life, I also don’t like unexpected surprises to interrupt what has proven to be tried and true.
My spiritual life varies based on how devotional and pious I am feeling. Questioning “faith” no longer seems to be an option: I have faith in *something *regardless of how actively I work with or against such a presupposition, or how actively I pray, perform devotions, give tithes, etc. The cornerstone has been lodged, I daresay, forever regardless of whether or not I like it! Like most spiritual lives, though, there are highs and lows. I’ve always been captivated by the lows, though, because these seem to be more recurrent than the highs. It’s when we’re experiencing the low-points in our spiritual life that each act we make is an act of sacrifice and love.
Our Lord has said in the Gospel of Matthew, “For if you love those who love you, what reward will you get?” (5:46) I think the same principle applies when we find ourselves going through the motions, as it were: if you can only pray the rosary, or make it to Mass, or go to confession when you are feeling particularly consoled by the Holy Spirit and experiencing a spiritual high, “are you doing anything exceptional?” (5:47) It’s when we find ourselves thinking, “I don’t want to pray,” “I don’t want to go to Bible Study,” and “I don’t want to go to Mass,” that the real action of the Holy Spirit takes place by giving us the grace to do it. We may not *feel *like doing it and we may *feel *distracted while doing it, but if our intention is to glorify God, then we’ll at least be headed in the right direction - and the Holy Spirit will make up for what we lack.