I've always hated school... period. I had a legitimate reason to hate it when I was younger (when my dad was alive and mom and I were living under the same roof as him), and that is because my dad would beat me if I didn't comprehend my subjects. It was super hard for me to learn with my dad breathing down my back and expecting me to just know the things I went to school for... otherwise I got beat. But after he died, I still hated school. The memory of him beating me if I didn't understand something haunted me for years... all throughout high school. I barely skated by with Ds, and at the end of my senior year, I was accepting that I wasn't going to graduate because of my failing grade in Economics.
I got over my fear of school and not understanding things by my senior year, but I would still find myself failing classes, goofing off, not paying attention, not doing my homework... not even trying.
After High school, I decided I didn't want to go to college. Since I was such a horrible student in school, I thought I would never get a scholarship, pretty much ruling out college for me. Then my mom forced me to go when I wasn't ready and didn't want to go. So, I went for almost a year, majored in music education. I ended up dropping out because of failing grades and loss of interest. Then she told me I owed her $3000 because she worked so hard for it. I told her before she forced me to go to college that I didn't want to go, and if she made me go and I failed, then I wouldn't owe her a dime. I told her, "Mom, you're going to waste your money on me. Even if I want to go, I'm still going to fail the classes."
Well, now I have a job paying $8/hour, and I am lucky to work 12 hours a week. I want to go back to school, but I now I see colleges and universities as "corporations" trying to scam people because they can. Rates go up every year and people are forced to take out loans from banks that they will probably not be able to pay off for the rest of their lives. I don't wish to be stuck in debt, because I HATE being in debt (that's why I'll never have a credit card). Now I see school as a scam to take people's money just so students learn meaningless information that they won't be able to apply in the so-called "real world" because of the ****** economy.
What's the point if the dollar is going to die soon anyway. What's the point if 71% of people graduate from college. That percentage is rising, which means the job market will not be open for people who even have college "degrees" (or, as I like to call them, "pieces of paper that are useless, and you might as well use them as fire inducers").
Maybe I'm just trying to find excuses not to go. Maybe I should just go and take out loans and spend the rest of my life in debt. I suppose if I want to marry and be a dad someday, I'll have to put myself in debt.
I know... I know... by now you're probably thinking, "What a crybaby. He's just finding any reason he can not to better himself." I can assure you that I don't think that way. I want to better myself, I just don't want to have to be in debt to do that. I also believe that college is a scam to take people's money that they don't have and make students suffer.
This is a link to a documentary called "College Conspiracy". It's one hour, two minutes long. youtube.com/watch?v=VpZtX32sKVE