Hey everybody! I've read this site often, but had to finally register because I've got a couple questions.(Actually, a ton, but I'll stay on topic here.)
The homily my priest gave today has scared me straight. He talked about how you could die right now so you better get everything straight with God. Of course I knew that, but I'd never really thought about it like I did today and it freaked me out.
Anyway, it made me want to go to confession. Which, admittedly, has been the weakest part of my faith. I've been Catholic for about 11 years now. I was baptized and confirmed at the same time on the Easter Vigil. (:thumbsup:) But I never went to confession. Partly because I wasn't convinced that it was the right thing, and mostly because - I'll admit it - I'm pretty afraid.
During college I was really close with the priest there, like we hung out quite often so there was no way I could go to confession there. I went once on a retreat thing, but was so nervous that it was a terrible confession and I left so much out that I felt worse than I did before I went in.
I'm planning to call the priest here this week and set up an appointment. (Clear the schedule.) My question is, am I just doing this because of the intense homily? I honestly want to embrace confession, I guess I just need to read up on my Catechism, and I don't want to just go on a reaction.
Finally, I know everyone on here says the priests have heard it all before. But I've done some stuff online that I feel really bad about, and I don't think I could even say it. I highly doubt the priest in this tiny town has heard it. I want to go to this priest because he is super hardcore and conservative, and I think that'll set me straight. But also, I'll see him all the time in this small parish (not to mention around town) and I don't want him to be like hey, there's that guy that ______ .
Anyway, sorry for the long first post. I look forward to discussions with you all. :)