Okay so I’m an 18 year old girl and up until about 4 months ago I would say I was quite diligent in my faith. I’ve suffered from some health issues and have received minor opps to clear the issues up so I haven’t made it to Mass in quite a white now. At first it was genuine illness but then I committed mortal sin and I guess I just sort of drifted away.
I really want to go to confession and I went with my dad about 2 months ago but the priest wasn’t there and confession wasn’t on. I don’t mind confession. I get nervous and what not but once it’s done I feel so much better. The thing is - the nature of my (repeated) sin is very embarrassing. Impure with myself and have looked at impure images ect…quite a lot over the past few months. I wouldn’t mind going to confession but at our church the confessional is through a door. Last time I was at confession my dad told me that he could hear what I was saying (and I was speaking very quietly with the priest) then, afterward when I went to do my penance at the back of the church (a rather large one) my dad was in and I could hear his voice. I went outside the church as I felt it disrespectful to listen to his confession, despite the fact that there were people inside waiting.
So I have this dilemma - I could go to my parish and confess/be heard or go somewhere else? The only issue with that is that the nearest parish is an hour bus ride away (which I don’t mind) and I have a meeting in that city on Friday but confession is at 11am and my meeting is at 3pm. I really want to go. (And bus fares are very expensive where I live and I’m a poor student)
I guess I’m just scared of confessing these sins to a priest I don’t know. I’ve heard stories of people being shouted at in the confessional for sexual impurity? I’m just very ashamed of my sin and I really want to go back to church on Sunday so badly and be able to take the Eucharist.
Sorry if I sound a bit whiny!
Thanks in advance for any answers.
God bless you xx