I sinned today against chastity (if you know what I mean). I’ll be going to Confession tomorrow. I’m embarrassed to admit it to my priest. I know he has heard it before, and I’ve even Confessed it to him before. That doesn’t make it much easier. I like my priest, and I don’t want him to know what a weak and horrible person I am. I feel so ashamed.
It’s horrible, like my heart is breaking inside of me. I love God so much, with all of my heart, and I don’t know why I betrayed Him like this. I am such a weak person, but I should have been able to resist the temptation. The only thing I can say is that I stopped myself soon after I started.
Do you have advice on any of this? Is there anything that can make Confession easier? There is no anonymous option at my parish, and since it is outside of scheduled times, I will have to ask him to meet with me. I’m anxious about my priest looking down on me, especially since I am active in my parish.
Is there anything I can do in the mean time before I can go to Confession? I’ve prayed some, but I feel so enormously guilty trying to talk to God while I am in such a state of sin.
I am looking for any support or advice you have. I had been doing well in purity for a couple of weeks, and I thought I had finally beat this terrible habit. I feel like crying.