I am discerning a vocation to the priesthood. I feel like my vocation is authentic, and I play on going to seminary right out of high school.
Tonight I kind of partook in gossip about my pastor with my grandmother. He is a very, very nice man. Despite some differences in style, he is a great, great man. I honestly don’t know what came over me.
I guess sometimes in my discernment and realization that I feel I AM really called to the priesthood, I try to cover it up, and sometimes gossip about other things for whatever reason.
I help at church a lot and I LOVE doing it. I feel at home. But even though I know I love it, I sometimes end up making it seem like I don’t like it because the topic of religion is tense around my household. Sometimes, just in general, I will make it seem like I don’t like it even though I do, just because.
How should I deal with this? Is this really anything major in regards to an authentic vocation?