I’m a single man, and I’ve struggled with pornography and masturbation for the last 16 years, and I’m still in the thick of it. However, the last few weeks I’ve been more preoccupied with going to a nearby strip club. I think I’ve preferred the strip club because it’s not as isolating as the porn, it’s a social experience, and real connections are made. I love the women that work there, and I pray for them, and I enjoy our conversations, but it’s also not without lust. Even though money is involved, there is a sort of confidence (false as it may be) that comes through when I talk and interact with the women. I’ve become attached to some of the women specifically. I understand fantasizing to porn and supporting a strip club are both wrong, but is one of these sins worse than the other?
Also, does anybody have experience overcoming an attachment to strip clubs? Any thoughts or suggestions? Alot of times I hear that you need to experience a bottom to begin recovery from an addiction, and that concerns me because I don’t believe I’ve hit a bottom yet. I wish my heart wanted to be converted, but at this moment I like the sin. I need some help. Please pray for me.