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Perhaps someone reading this might have experienced what I am going through. Due to her dementia, I had no choice but to place my 90 yr old mother in a hospital. While her brain illness has worsened over the years, the past year and a half has been very difficult for me. I continue to visit her frequently, but when I come home into her house, sadness comes over me and I miss her. Though my dad also had Alzheimers, mom and I supported one another while caring for him. Now I carry the heavy and painful load alone. Apart from crying, praying, singing songs of praise, planting flowers, how else can I deal with the pain that swells up in my heart?
You need the support of others who are going through what you are going through. Perhaps there is a chapter of an Alzheimers Association close to you? Regular meetings can be very helpful, particularly meeting others in your situation and exchanging stories.
I have two older sisters who live in a different country from me. They both have Alzheimers. I have had to face the possibility that this may happen to me, too. I joined the Alzheimers Association here and attend the monthly meetings. I have found them to be very helpful, as I meet caregivers and care companions who share their ups and downs, and also learn more about the condition. Our meetings usually take the form of receiving information and news about the condition, introducing new members, sharing our stories, and just getting to know each other better.