Hello. I am hoping someone can provide me some guidance on a couple things.
I left the Church for 11 years and became an anti-Catholic Protestant/Fundamentalist. My time away from the church was a huge struggle of faith where I constantly felt I was being called back to the Catholic church, I went to confession almost yearly during my away time, and attended a couple Masses during my time away. But thought of Catholicism as my disease or temptation that I had to overcome. During my time away I got married and had children, who I didn’t raise in the Catholic faith. We were attending worship services of various Baptist churches. If we attended a certain one, it was because of the preaching style or the music selections.
Last year in May I came back home to the Church. Since then I have been doing what I need to get me and my children ‘right’ with the Church, to be in full communion. They have been attending CCD and were just baptised a month ago. In the next couple weeks they will have their first confession and Holy Communion.
Herein comes the point of this post.
- As I said, I was away from the church for 11 years. I never contacted a Priest when I came back to have a ‘big’ confession of every sin I commited over the 11 year period, and even in my teenage years when I began falling away. I did go to confession and confessed what I remembered after doing an examination of conscience.
So what if I begin to remember sins that I don’t recall or am not sure if I confessed. Do I confess them (again possibly)? Would it be wrong of me to think back over those 11 years and confess all my sins. I am not sure I can separate them from what I have confessed, what I might have confessed and what I recall not confessing. Or is it sufficient to confess what I remember and “those sins I cannot remember”?
- The priest (Father K) whom I routinely receive absolution from laughs at me in confession. Not happy happy joy joy laughter, but mocking me. He laughs at me with disgust or sarcasm. Hard to describe it, I hope you know what I am talking about. Because of this, I delayed my last confession because I needed to build up the courage to go back. What do I do about this?
My priest (Father D) who has been working with my children getting them in communion with the Church has offered to let them receive their first confession and Holy Communion the weekend of August 9. He won’t be around at that time though. The kids would have to go to the priest (Father K) that I referred to above, the one who laughs at me. I would certainly hope he wouldn’t do that with children, but I don’t want to risk it. I guess I will have them delay receiving these Sacraments until the Father D is available. Is this wrong of me?
Have ya’ll had this problem before?