Hi everyone. I am posting this because, I have been feeling somewhat torn in two lately. May be it's because of my age, I'm not really sure.
Since I was 17 years old, I have had a tug at my heart for a calling to the priesthood. I ignored the calling because I was dating my wife. We got married, have 3 kids, and currently divorced for almost 3 years. My wife has decided to let her boyfriend move in, she has full custody of the children, and I have decided to remain chaste and not pursue another relationship because I recognize that I am sacramentally married. Recently though, this calling has become stronger.
Now realistically, I have to apply for an annulment and wait upon the tribunals decision on wether or not my marriage was valid from the get go. If the annulment is possible, then I would fall in the category of never have been married, since my marriage was not vaild to begin with. Second, I know the Church is not going to want to become responsible in paying child support until my kids turn 18. I can pursue in becoming a deacon, and I guess it would be up to my bishop if I would be allowed to pursue the priesthood or not when my yougest becomes 18 and child support is paid off. Going into the deaconate will, eventually bind me to my current state of life, without a spouse, which I have no problem with.