I found a Trappist Monastery in Conyer Ga, Monastery of the Holy Spirit;
my intent was to visit this Monastery to help me in my discernment process, they have a vocations retreat coming up soon..
well the other day i had spoke with a vocations director for the priesthood in my diocese by phone and mentioned this to him ; this was my first contact with this V.D a rather introduction call, my intial inquiry i has via email was a broad question of any upcoming vocation retreats to the priesthood.
i am discerning between the two the priesthood n brotherhood, now finding out that there are many orders to each, so I am trying to focus just on the vocation of being a Diocesan Priest, or a Brother, in either and i thought there was only Fransican, and Benedictine but now i have found out there is also this one i have linked above.
There are Jesuit Priests, Chaplains, etc...
anyhow i was a bit troubled with this V.D had said " he had heard somethings about the monastery" , and im thinking you have got to be kidding me, so i asked for him to continue and he said he had already said to much and didnt want to influence my desicion any.
well i had askd him to merely tell me anything i might want to consider before attending the vocation retreat there... n he merely said that he had heard over the past 10 yrs or so they had become rather "orthodox" but that maybe they have tightend up some.
now i am 33yrs old, i do understand that people have their own agendas, and that having an agenda is not necessarily a bad thing.
I am at a cross roads now, i know nothing about this monastery, i have talked to a V.D who i felt was being rather slick with me, and he did mention a formation house for those in discernment and seminarians in my area, which i do plan on looking into as well... i am keeping everything open.
but the seed of doubt has been planted in my head and i wish it hadn't in regards to going to this monastery,,,, i contacted the monastery in hopes of some clarification to this.
who knows if i will get a response any time soon.
that and i would get in touch with my Spiritual Director, but he is a rather new priest, and he is very busy, he had to go out of town and i didnt find out until i called a day before to confirm the time of our meeting and found out via voice message he was gone for the week.... that and i think i might be overwhelming him with very lengthy email questions, not constant but if i do send an email it can be long.
So I dont know if i should find a different S.D or not either...
i feel like i am being spun around in different directions and the only thing i know where i am confident is in adoration, outside of that i feel rather lost.