i put this question in this sub-forum because it’s related to confession i guess
i am dealing with a habitual sin that has been a big part of my life
i am not sure what to do about it
i think it has to do with me wanting to feel needed and have emotional comfort?
anyway, i am trying to dive into my new parish
for years i was inconsistent with the church and very unclear on a lot of what it means to be christian (even though i was raised catholic)
so God has brought me to this point where I know things are wrong now that I (somehow) didn’t think were wrong before, I accept all the church’s teachings now though I didn’t in the past, I am starting to go to mass every Sunday and get involved in the parish and go to confession a lot
that all has been great but I still have mortal sin in my life
i was clean for a month and it was a great month! i felt close to God! but here i am again.
i fornicate. with someone who i don’t know if i could marry them. i don’t know what to do - break it off with him? never see him again? it seems like it might be what i have to do but will i be able to do it? i am attached to the person. what if there is a chance that we do get married?
how should i approach this situation so that I can put God first in my life but maybe still be able to love this person?