I have had similar things happen. The Holy Spirit is so good to us, to speak to us so directly!
Last spring/early summer I was really struggling at work. The struggle had actually begun in the winter and this was God’s will as he was drawing me to him through this crisis.
I prayed and prayed and prayed for another job. I went to the charismatic prayer meetings (our group is pretty solid and focuses on the sacraments) Let me also say that I am NOT an charismatic. I just went to meetings for awhile, and recieved support I didn’t know I needed at the time.
Anyway, I had begun writing down what Jesus was saying to me during adoration. A spiritual director helped me through this. (If anyone has questions, send me a PM, I’m not going to go into it here).
While praying over and over, I heard Jesus telling me (paraphrased)…“You always think the grass is greener elsewhere. If you move, you’ll realize that this is true. Trust me and keep your eyes on me. When it is time for you to move, I will move you.”
I was distraught at this “locution”. The only road I saw was one of misery…I was about to be fired, my integrity was in question although I was innocent of anything other than a misunderstanding, not an intentional act.
When I was being “confronted” on the work issue with a manager and my supervisor, the meeting was immediately after my llunch break,…which I spent in adoration. While there, I heard Jesus say, “Keep your eyes on me.”
I didn’t understand why, until I got to the meeting and was confronted with the lies against me. I was only able to keep my composure by repeating what Jesus had said…and in that meeting, I KNEW I was not alone.
I did not defend myself, because to do so, although legitimate and truthful, would have pulled someone else down and would only have served to make me look like I was saying “but she did it first!”. The person who had lied about me was a company sweetheart. The only option I had was to sit there and take it.
It went into my record, and there it resides.
Then I thought it was over when the husband of the woman who accused me became my manager. Now, I had assisted him in the past…he’d sent messages to my unit when needing something for the unit he supervised at the time and I was quick to respond with the info and any advice. The good news, then, was that I had cultured a working relationship with a manager I didn’t really know.
The bad news was that he now had access to an untruthful record about me and I feared it was the end.
But God is good. In another “locution” during adoration, Jesus again told me to trust him and keep my eyes on him.
This manager may be the best I ever had. He is an alma mater of my college, now knows of my possible vocation (and can keep a secret), yet he is able to maintain the sepearation needed to complete truthful evaluations of my work.
I’m still waiting to be moved, though…and Jesus has been silent on this so far. But I’m back to needing to leave this position.
One of the most important “locutions” (I use the quotes because I do not hear anything…the Lord is speaking through my soul, and he speaks this way for everyone…we just can’t always hear him due to our own dispositions)). …anyway, one of the most important locations told me that it was OK to question whether this was of the Lord, and to pay attention because what he told me would come to pass.
So if you doubt something is of the Lord, DO question. We are not to put the Lord to the test…but we are to be responsible and intelligent about whose advice we are follwing. If it is of the Lord, it will be confirmed by him with more than cozy loving feelings.
I have also recieved messages which were NOT of the Lord, and those, likewise, were not confirmed.
Pray on, my sister. Let Jesus speak to you and take your children often to adoration so that they can also learn to listen to him so intimately.