hi all please help…
i was having a scary girlfriend, she always angry to me, she is always sensitive, and she had a very high sex interest that makes me feel more scared about our future.
at first she is a very patience girl, but after 2 months become my girlfriend, she’s showing some strange attitude, she didn’t have any girl friends, so her friend is all boys, so that makes her a little bit rude and harsh, i alredy talk to her why ? she’s said girls are slow and she doesnt like talking about gossip and going to shopping, at first i thought she was special which God sent me to accompany, but after that, she always mad at me, i dont know why, i never mad at her, i always said with patience “Pls remember God when youre in anger, idont want to see you like that”, at first she always calmed if i said that, but later she become more furious than before. in that day i thought God wanted me to change her to be a patience girl, or God want me to be a strong person and patience too.
but after that too, her frequency in anger is more and more, in one week there’s always 3 or 4 days we just in deep anger. in sunday too, and even in the church, she mad at me, my friends said maybe she’s crazy there’s noone who dare to show anger in church.
she always feel tired, eventhough she is not sick or what, she also have a high sex interest, i’m worrried she will cheated on me if we are married.
yet one day she told me she feel tired and doesnt want to goes to campus and want to be with me, i hate a lazy person. i just remembered my lecturer is a catholic person who maybe can give advice to her. so i suggested her to go to my lecturer.
but this is the most scariest moment of my life !!
my lecturer is somekind like a ghostbuster or what, my lecturer said that inside my girlfren body theres a spirit who is evil. my lecturer said that when she talked to her, my girlfriend said “you are an annoying old lady”, i was shocked. theres no student said like that to her own lecturer right ? except her lecturer is a bad person.then i go to meet them both, we talked each other, my girlfriend didnt know that she said such a thing to our lecturer. then my lect. said i saw a girl who is fat and looked very scary that girl looked like my girl friend. i remembered that my girlfriend’s mother is already passed away. so i thought it was her, i showed my lecturer her moms photo. and my lect said yes she is. instantly my giirlfren crying. i became more confused, and i dont know what to do. then my lect want us to pray our father in heaven, but when we are in 2nd our father in heaven my girlfriend suddenly smile strangely, then my lect said “who are you” to my girl fren and of course i have never seen exorcism in front of my eyes!!! and my girlfren was angry like she was angry with me, she said “you are all monkey”. then my lect just grab her hand and pushed it with some lime or orange or what, i dont know, my girl fren is just feel she is in great sick, i feel so sad. ( this is too long story and i still scared to remeber it )
one day iwas in a deep stress, she is angry with me, my boss was furious because my job is got passed the deadline, my college and study are mess, and all of my friend think i’m a selfish because i care more with my job and girlfriend. i thought that day i will never believe in God anymore. in my office i got 2 bread, i remembered my girlfren said “share”, so i eat one, and igave her one of 2 bread. she doesnt want to eat she want to share her part with me too. i dont want to because its her part. she threatened me to throw it to garbage if i dont eat it. then i think she;s kidding bcause she already “cleaned”, but what ? she throw it to garbage in front of my eyes !!! and she is running away just like in the film or movie.
then my mom and my papa called me in phone, they dont like that girl. i try to convinced my parents that i will change her. but my mom crying and my father is angry with me, i never met my family condition like this, so i thought i must leave her. then i leave her. but she still want to go back with me with every ways,
now i hateee her so mucchhh !!! he just like a pain in the head, i always angry at her if she got near me. i always run. idont want to see her face. but we still talked sometimes.
now i dont know what to do, i feel empty now, i want to go where i was happy everyday, but now i dont know what to do. i dont want to go back wiht her ! i hate her so much until now!
now i worried about marriage, i doubt i will find a right person to marry with, even i’m too young to think about it, it makes me feel empty and have no direction now, i just sleep all day, i rise again and played soccer with my friends again, but still i feel empty.
i prayed to God, but i don’t understand what should i do next ?
thank u, sorry its a long story, and a fair english, but i feel happy when i told this. what should i do to feel my empty ?