There’s this book Do It at Home Retreat. That’s a Catholic book by Ignatian Press. I’m not that big a fan of the Ignatian retreat, but you might like it. You can go here retreatday.com/ for some ideas, but I think it’s ecumenical, though nothing to be objected to.
But I always made my own, since I live alone, by choosing a few days, telling everyone I was not answering the phone, staying off forums because silence is always part of my retreats. I go to daily Mass, often go someplace like a park to do some contemplative prayer. I have some spiritual reading I want to work through, like reading a saint’s diary. I turn off the TV of course and keep a journal of thoughts, which is often something I do on the computer. I go to an adoration room in the evenings.
I’m spiritually and emotionally drained these days, one minute I think God is on my side, the next I think of all the little deaths I had to go through, the little cays of joy in an ocean of adversity, how some are so blessed and doing immeasurably better in all aspects than I ever will.
I don’t want to seem disagreeable but - you don’t know they are “doing better.” See, whatever someone’s life looks like on the outside, we don’t know what God sees. For some, even taking the smallest step toward God is a huge effort, a great battle. For another, they seem to fly right up to the edge of heaven. That baby step can be of greater holiness than all the seemingly holier actions of others. Your struggle can be the very thing that makes your fight of such great value to God. (The last shall be first…)
BTW, one of my favorite retreats is to get a commentary on a gospel, you know, where they have the Scripture and discussion about the passages, and read those. I also like anything John Paul 2 wrote.
I’m getting weary of fighting.
May be time to stop fighting and just surrender into the Divine Mercy of Jesus. Hey, you remember in the Gospels when Jesus sends out the apostles the first time and He tells them if they are not welcomed, just shake the dust from their feet and move on? Remember Mary and Martha, and Martha running about serving and Mary is just sitting at Jesus’ feet listening and Jesus says “Mary chose the better part.”
Maybe just do that.