I attended a Mass this past Saturday evening that was billed as a "Healing Mass".
What it is, is a Mass that is followed up with a sort of prayer service. It is a thing from the Charismatic Renewal. The Mass was a bit longer due to the different things that the Charismatic group do but it was a nice reverent Mass if you are into that sort of thing. I enjoy that style of music and, as I said, that Mass was good but not something I would chose for everyday.
Afterwards the priest laid hands on everyone who came forward praying for them. Before this during the Mass and afterwards he spoke about healing. He spoke that healing is there, we should expect it. All we need to do is ask for it. This seems to be the message of healing from the Charismatic movement.
Now down to it. I was disappointed with the whole thing. It was really just a Mass with the priest praying over everyone afterwards. When he came to me he did not ask why I was there, did not ask what my illness is. He just said a couple of words then laid his hands on me and blessed me. Through in a couple of saints in the prayer and moved on. There was another person there doing extended prayers but the wait was too long, as it was I did not get home until 11pm, I arrived at 6:30, Mass started around 7. I had to skip dinner to go so when I left I was starving and had to stop at a drive thru to get something to eat.
There are two problems that I have.
1) This instance that healing is right there, all you have to do is ask for it and expect it.
So when we do not get it, is it our fault? Are we doing something wrong?
2) There is an actual Sacrament of Healing. The Anointing of the Sick. Why isn't that used?
Sorry for the rant but I am feeling a bit down and wondering where I have gone wrong.
For those of you who do not know I was diagnosed with stage iv colorectal cancer with mets/ lungs back in Nov 2009. So it has been about 2 and a half years. Prayers are welcome.