Hello everyone, I come to you in a very sad time in my life. I am confused and weary, heartbroken and sad. I know to some this may sound trivial and rediculous, but to me it is the hardest thing I have ever had to go through.
Basically, my girlfriend (whom I planned on marrying) decided she wanted to “take a break.” There was another guy, whom she was confused about what to do. Apparently this guy would walk her home from work, and one day gave her a kiss. She had feelings for this guy, so she wanted to take a break so she could sort things out. Well, we eventually got back together. I rejoiced thinking my prayers were answered.
Then, I get another slap in the face. I find out she cheated on me. This other guy, (different from the first), is older than her by a few years. She has feelings for this kid now, and would want to cuddle and kiss him when she goes to see him. I am heartbroken once again. She said she thinks she still loves me, and wants to be together, but sometimes she doesnt. She says she is so confused, and doesnt want to cheat on me again. That is why she wants to take another “break.”
I dont want to do that. I honestly cant live without her. She is the love of my life, the best thing that has ever happened to me. I thought my prayers were answered, and that everything is going to be ok. But apparently not. I trust her with my life, and forgive her. Yes I am upset that that happened, but I forgive her because I love her so much.
I honestly dont know what to do. I thought that we were going to spend the rest of our lives together, and start a family. I just dont know. Im confused now, because I dont want to be playing second fiddle, if you know what I mean. But I dont want to leave her. I want her to come back and have things be the way they used to be. I still care about her and her safety, and I always will.
I also would like to mention one more thing. I have felt a calling to the Priesthood for a while. Before we started to go out I had this feeling, only it wasnt as strong. But when we starting going out I thought that God had something else planned for my life. Now however, I am feeling that calling even more, and it is much stronger. But I still want to be with her. I’m confused myself now.
If you could please give me some insight. Perhaps some outside views would help me understand the situation better. Please dont try to antagonize my girlfriend, I love her and always will. Also, I wasnt really sure where to put this. So if this is in the wrong section I’m sorry. I figured I’d put it here since it is kind of my daily walk with Christ. Thanks for reading this long post. God Bless!