I was baptized and confirmed as Catholic. I was going through a phase of my life where I search for meaning and I was vulnerable to the smiling faces and warm fellowships of Mormons. Prior to that, I’ve always attended the Catholic Church and all my intercession requests to Holy Mary were answered precisely. Yet, you can go to the Catholic church for years without knowing anyone there at all. In the churches I attend there were no fellowship and this was I needed in life. So I took a wrong turn to Mormonism.
I already confessed my “apostasy” to a Priest but after that I again was tempted to attend to the LDS mass (which is called the sacrament meeting in LDS Church).
I never embraced their baloney theology. I forced myself to believe in it. I pretended like I believed in it but I never did. So, I feel a little bit insincere when I confess it to a priest because I never believed their doctrine in my heart.
For some reason (too long to explain), I have to attend the LDS mass for 2 more weeks. Meantime I am planning to attend the Saturday Vigils of the Catholic Church. Should I confess my apostasy again to a Catholic priest? After my last confession, I didn’t believe in their theology again yet I feel like I no longer see God’s grace in my daily.
So I find the answer in confessing my attendance to LDS mass again and again, although it is just me sitting a chair and pretend like I believe.
I feel so lost. I am sorry that my situation is more than complicated but I am really in need of spiritual advice on how to reconcile to be a Catholic while attending to LDS mass for 2 more weeks.