Thank you for taking the time to help me with my question.
I am discerning becoming a Franciscan sister. I am 20 years old and currently finishing school, so I have a few years to continue discerning, until I finish my BA at least. My objective for the present has become to dedicate my studies and my prospective degree to the Church, as I think a degree in my field would be useful to the Church.
I want to be dedicated to a more scrutinized lifestyle, but I do not know where to turn for direction. I really am dedicated to working my best to incorporating Franciscanism into my "lay-life" (and perhaps ultimately to replace my lay-life), but there is no Franciscan spiritual direction available to me where I live at present. As I commented in an earlier post, the OSF in my county is not orthodox and so I will not consider taking direction from them. I do have a spiritual director, but he is not himself a Franciscan and the direction is more based upon general vocational discernment.
If anyone has experience in the Franciscan vocation, I would really appreciate a response with some advice for taking steps toward living in Franciscan values. My questions pertain most immediately with the material situation -- what does poverty for a lay person look like? I speculate often on my lifestyle in this regard, but it is difficult to receive advice because those unfamiliar with Franciscanism (and dedication to any religious order) perceive scrupulosity in this too easily, and tend to discourage.
As a note, *my concerns come not from scrupulosity but from sincere regard for Franciscan values. *(I am not scrupulous, if that will help in the generosity of your advice. I joined the OCD/scrupulosity group on CAF to see if I had any similar feelings, and I found that I do not.)
Thank you so much for your consideration on this.