At this point, I’m struggling with having faith in any divine entity. I once had faith like a child, but in recent years, have sought out reason, which has left me with something to be desired.
I associate faith with hope. I believe when people say they have “experienced” God, it’s their imagination. It’s so easy to associate anything and everything that happens with God, but I find it hard to do so, without any proof.
When I pray, I feel like it falls on deaf ears. I feel like my words float up and hit the ceiling, but don’t go anywhere.
What can I do to get God to tell me He’s there? I know God doesn’t like to be audible, so I won’t even ask about that. Oh, and as far as seeing Him, that’s obviously out of the question. God is quite camera shy.
Can I get a voice in my head? Can I ask God to tingle my spine? Is there anything I can earnestly ask God to do, that He will do (with enough turnaround time to make it believable) to better my faith?
If I pray that God give me goosebumps, and suddenly I have them, I associate it with God. If I ask God for goosebumps, and I get them three days from now, I think nothing of it.
Please help. How can I get my “Heavenly Father” to talk to His child? To let him know that He is there?