I do not know what god is calling me to help
Have you tried praying before the Blessed Sacrament? I find that sometimes helps. Also, you can find a good spiritual director to help you.
Pray every day a short prayer to know, trust in God, be at peace about it, yet attentive and ready to move forwards at the speed God may desire.
Read some good vocational discernment books, and books about living properly the different vocations.
There isn’t much in your post that would explain your circumstances in life and what steps you are taking to discern a possible vocation.
Could you talk to a priest about your concerns?