[SIGN]This topic warrents a disclaimer. This discussion is not intended for philosophical arguments. The validity of any statements herein has not been established. It is not intended to alter anyones beliefs but rather ask for advice. Please feel free to respond with opinions, suggestions, observations, personal experiences etc. I’m not saying that I would reject prayer out of hand but I am not looking to maintain the status quo. I will pray anyways though.[/SIGN]
First let me say I do not preach or evangelize. My beliefs are not set in stone. I am willing to accept truth and that I may not know something or I may have ever been wrong or that what was true before may have changed. I do believe in truth however.
I have a prophesy problem. No I am not Mohammad. But it is me doing prophesy. OK, what do I mean by that. I say and do things that are connected with events coincidentally. This has been going on for at least 7 years or so. The events have been local and global. These include natural phenomenon: earthquakes, tornadoes and tsunamis etc. Active persons: guns, abductions, terrorist activities, motor vehicles, a hockey puck, etc. Sudden deaths: heart attacks, strokes. Things have been revealed. Not all things but some of them. Unspeakable things have been done towards the filthy rich. It is not my hand but the hand of God.
All of this on the just on the internet (accept for the terrorist activities and the hockey puck). I was locked up in mental institutions and put in jail for people dieing. God did fight for me to be released. Nobody was listening but he did fight. He took hostages and sent a snipper. I realize that snipper could have been for anyone. That I know the hostage would be released 4 years later my my own self-proclaimed psychic abilities and miraculous action, I say it was for me not to be in jail; this was the coincidence.
I gave up. I would not speak. I believed it (God is real) but no one listened or cared. But it followed me around and I was made to speak.
I don’t want people to die. I kind of figure God will do what he will do (that includes what he does with me somewhat I guess). That is why it qualifies for insurance claims. I did not ask to do this nor to be what I am. I am afflicted. My signs and wonders go unnoticed. I feel bad.
My problem is that I am lonely. What am I supposed to do? I am misunderstood. I have no place to go. There is no place for me in the church. There is no place for me in society accept for mental institutions or on the street with wackos. Not that I mind these people, but I want to have a family. I am not weird. When prophesy comes it is not an obvious thing. It can be integrated into what I do. I don’t mind working. Some people make me unwell however.
Is their jobs for prophets? What am I supposed to do? Maybe a singles network? Anything? Aren’t there supposed to be girl prophets or apostles or whatever you call them? I have difficulties. Discuss.