As some of you may know I am suffering from a mental illness.(I had posted it several months ago) Although I do have this illness I do have a strong faith in the Lord and I constantly pray for my own personal healing.
But lately, I noticed that my paranoia and depression are coming back. I am still being treated with medications and therapy by my pdoc for my illness.
Again, I am having thoughts that I had already died and had been cast into hell and there is no hope for someone like me. I get very frightened and anxious everytime I am having these thoughts. It is a very scary idea and it consumes me day and night.
I need your help to ease my mind. Am I really in hell or am I just delusional or paranoid at this point? At times it’s hard for me to differentiate reality from imaginary. I cannot talk to family members or friends about this because they will just get upset with me or they will just totally ignore me.
Again, I can feel that my faith in God is being tested. I would appreciate any replies or input regarding this post. Thanks for listening.