Hello brothers and sisters.
I’m looking for some help and advice regarding my struggle with OCD. I’m a relatively new Catholic (Baptised August 2019). I’ve been struggling with OCD for around 20 years, and I’m now 28.
Since turning to God and the Catholic faith, I have found great strength. However, my OCD has latched onto this, and I’m having terrible intrusive thoughts when trying to pray, read the bible or pray the Holy Rosary etc. Actually, sometimes I’m constantly getting intrusive thoughts, usually about something I really care about and love. And for the last year or so it’s been mostly about my faith.
I know Jesus knows what is in my heart and my true intentions, but I really can’t shake off the anxiety of thinking I have sinned greatly by thinking these thoughts. If I get an intrusive thought whilst carrying out a task, for example shutting a door, I have to repeat the task, sometimes multiple times until I’ve put it right by saying I didn’t want to think the bad thought. It’s really taking over my life, and I feel bad because I’m not trusting my faith, I’m giving in to the OCD.
I hope this explains my situation. I would appreciate any help or advice.