I seem to be struggling spiritually. Up until a few days ago my relationship with the Lord was very good and my payers were relatively well-said. Unfortunately I fell into mortal sin last week, and since then everything has changed. Although I have said many prayers of apology, done penance and resolved to go to confession ASAP (although I haven’t been able to go so far) my spirituality has been damaged to say the least. Prayer is much less satisfying and I feel very cut off from the Lord. I have been perhaps less graceful since, and am acutely aware of all of my faults. Most of all, what pains me is the thought that my relationship with God has been destroyed and the thoughts I have had (which, of course, i have tried to dispell for the nuiscance that they are) that my religion was a form of psychological wish-fulfilment: that the experianes I and others have had of God were just psychologial. Something is very definitely missing from my spirituality, and I am worried that this may not recover even after I confess, and that I will always be plagued with doubt and sin.
Brothers and sisters, please pray for me.