I am trying to discern God’s will for me. I have spent some significant amount of my time lately to figure out what path that God wants me to take.
I have a very good job, a brand new car, and enough money to sustain myself…God has given me all these out of his pure love.
However as I come to think of what I should do for my own life…all these things that I accomplished seem utterly selfish and meaningless. Why is it me that have money, fancy clothes, food, shelter, and car, while people living in the third world is suffering under hunger? Often I discover that I am so focused on earning bread for my own that I forget that I should focus more on Christ. I have been thinking of becoming a religious sister lately.
yet at the same time a part of my heart is still somewhat uncertain about whether it is truly God’s will for me to join a religious order. What I know for sure is that God wants me to “serve at his altar” - I have been an altar server for years and Jesus has given me many graces through this lay ministry. I wish God speaks to me in a loud voice to let me know what he wills for me, but God will do what he wants to do…
I am so confused…any thoughts?