This is my first post here and I was wondering to see if anyone can help me with my spiritual dilemma.
I am very scrupulous to an insane degree. I worry about everything, to the point where I just stop praying because I think im doing it wrong. I can never pray mentally or out of a book out of fear of not doing it properly. I am especially scrupulous about confession and my sins.
I know very well the differences between Venial and Mortal sins very well, however I have doubts and confuse them all the time. I fear that a sin I know was venial COULD be mortal, so I confess it. I confess each and every sin I can think of, I go to confession every week, and every time is torture for my conscience. I worry I forgot something, or that I didn’t really commit a sin or that I am not sorry enough.
I am so worried it drives me crazy. Each time after confession I feel good for about an hour, and then doubts about it and things I may have forgotten creep into my mind again. I am lost and don’t know what to do. Right now, I am examining my conscience, and I have only 3 mortal sins, but over 10 venial sins. I literally go through a book with a list of sins and check them off. The Priest I confess to just says to confess whatever sins I want to, and doesn’t really help me with my scruples. What should I do in this regard?
If anyone could help me with this I would greatly appreciate it! What should I do?