well, i gotta admit that sometime ago i was into some occult stuff. it was not like i joined a cult or something, everything was personal. at the end i began droping everything from that, since it caused me great pain. with the last part of that was believeing in psychic powers such as telepathy and stuff, (everything as something internal of mankind, without the aid of external factors or spirits)
but now, I began thinking about that and fearing that i might have gotten some items cursed or smething like that by my beliefs. I’m not saying this because i have seen something weird around(at least nothing i could be 100% sure it is of supernatural origins and could not say it comes from those stuff). just the fear. so i kinda become worried about this, and began looking if images i had in the Computer, emails and stuff where made with that in mind (like using a nick because i tought i was something or would like to become something). like i told you i never joined groups or anything, so as far as I remember i never bought an item like an amulet and stuff, the images and stuff are pretty much normal stuff you’ll find on a common house, and I don’t recall ever doing anything like using a ritual to give them any special property (altough sometimes maybe out of the fear I began that i could have, but really not sure if actually happened or how it happened if I did)
so my question is, do you think it would be good for me to just move on, I think im just diggin up in the past and just scaring myself, and damaging myself. so i ask for your opinion, if it is worth to continue thinking about that, or just move on, never do something like that and live my life normally, like i told you some of those stuff are some years old and I cant recall properly, and if you think about meaning for me pretty much all of them have changed if they had a diferent one in the past, i don’t fear coming back to those beliefs, I was hurt by them so much that I dont really find that attractive anymore. and yes I could just erase everything and toss away stuff, but well, like i the email and stuff, I would have to work and stuff to move everything out of it, and really would not like tounless it is necesary. besides im not sure what was i really thinking when i made them, so i dont even know if i made them with wrong intentions and stuff.