As i was praying i had a blaphemous lustfull thought at the same time and it was like i was talking to myself in my head. i dwelt in the thought for about 2 seconds and when it got strong i stoped the whole thing.
I can not look at a pic of the holy mary because i get thoughts right away. i normally am able to just ignore them and carry on but this one i feel i bought it against myself. in stead off just getting rid of it i found myself listening to the voice of listening to myself and then after a couple of seconds i stoped myself.
Very hard to explain but when it comes to thoughts of mary it just breaks me.
i cant even look a any person without thought rights away popping up.
should i confess this one before comunion or because i stop myself after a couple of seconds its only venial. can anyone help