My mom had a tubal ligation after she had her fifth child. She consulted with a priest, and he said it was OK since she had already 5 kids which meant she was open to life and having more children with pose health risks to her and to the babies.
When I was expecting my forth child, my mom advised me to do the same thing under the same circumstances and she assured me that it was morally OK. After all, that was going to be my third C-Section.
I gave it a second taught and decided that it was irresponsible on my part to risk to get pregnant again and die and leave my children orphaned. So I did.
I was raised in a very Catholic family. All my family has been actively involved in Church. I’m even working on a Master’s Degree in Theology. This is what brought me here.
As I was studying Papal Infallibility, I found out that my mom and I acted on the wrong information. I started a deep research about that and found out that in the 50s, 60s, and 70s. there was a missunderstanding and that it was actually believed that tubal ligation was permissible if any future pregnancies would pose a riks to the mother. This was like a SHOCK.
I now feel very bad. Although I don’t really understand, I accept the teaching authority as final but I feel as betrayed by my own Church. I acted in good faith, and so my mom. I would have never done if I had known what I know now. I would be in complete abstinence which will hurt the “unitive” part of my marriage.
I feel I need some healing and some time to “digest” the concept. I know sterilization is approved if it comes as a side effect to cure an illness, called indirect sterilization, but it is not approved to prevent an illness.
Please help! I’m very confused.