Hello all, I have been struggling quite a bit over the last month in all aspects of my life. I came into the Church in 2011 and have always felt something along the lines of a call to serve in a capacity outside that of what may be considered the norm. I have made inquiries with different orders - Schoenstatt, Franciscans, Canons Regular of Saint John Cantius - as well as the Diocese of Springfield in Illinois and Juneau in Alaska. Most recently the Juneau Diocese invited me up for a week in October and I believed things went incredibly well. So much so that I quit my job and gave up pretty much everything in anticipation of pursuing what appeared to be THE opportunity to truly and fully discern my vocation.
Now it appears that the Alaska opportunity may never come to fruition and I feel like I am stuck in life without much to even hope for so far as my vocation is concerned. I have had some profound connections with Carmel and the Byzantine Rite since returning from Alaska, perhaps that is something to look into.
Forgive my frustration but I am constantly hearing about the need for vocations this and that and at least in my experience I have had an incredible willingness to further discern but no entity will even allow me to have a meaningful opportunity to do so. Any thoughts or ideas on what I might consider doing from here?