I need prayers. I have not been on in a while. I am losing faith. I get my faith up, and then I lose it. I want to go to Church. I have a problem with the Father of my Church. I cant understand him when he talks. It is a small town, so I dont have very many choices when it comes to going to a different church. I used to go into the Church and listen and get “moved” by the Holy Spirit. Now, I just go and try to focus to no avail. The more I miss Church, the more away from Jesus I move. I used to listen to my CD’s that pray the rosary. Now I dont even do that. I just feel like a failure.
You would just think that it was so easy. All I would have to do is pick up the CD player and listen to it. Walk the one block on Sunday to go to church. The motivation is gone. I feel so lost at times. It is heart breaking because I love my Father in Heaven so much. I read this over and over again and I feel like all I am doing is making excuses for myself. Please pray for me?