So, I’ll start off by saying that I’ve only been officially catholic since April. With that being said, there are two major issues I have (technically three, but the third is minor)
- Chastity: I have no problem in believing one should wait till marriage for sex. Though it is difficult task, I am completely willing to wait, even in my weak moments. However, I wish we AT LEAST had the option of masturbation. I’ve heard it compared to throwing gasoline on fire, which I greatly disagree with. I’ve heard that it’s ‘selfish’ which I can understand if one were masturbating instead of bonding with their spouse. I am single, so why can’t I just take a few moments to myself? If pornography were involved, which it’s not, I would understand condemning it, then.
I’m having a problem stopping. I go to confession when I can, always for masturbation and nothing else. Which leads me to wonder if that would send me to hell, especially since it’s the only mortal sin I struggled with and have ever confessed. I’ve never even been drunk!
I really don’t want to hear the excuse that masturbation will lead to porn. Not true. I just don’t understand why a single person who isn’t even in a relationship can’t masturbate. Please don’t quote the catechism. I know exactly what it says. I don’t want to offend God ,but part of me doesn’t want to me chaste. I’m not looking for an excuse to continue masturbating. I’m looking for a reason to quit. A reason why God would even bother to care that we are masturbating. It doesn’t damage us. I’m not some sick pervert who masturbates in public. If you use lust as the reason it’s bad, why does that matter if I’m single? I’m not cheating on anyone.
Homosexuality. I was raised to believe it was wrong, but my mother simply said “because the bible says so” and she’s right, but that wasn’t enough for me. If you take the original text, Hebrew, then you could say that homosexuality applied to young boys being prostitutes back then, not actual male on male sexual activity. I have never seen this theory disproven. Homosexuality is later mention by Paul, I believe, but his words are not God’s. He preached what he believed, but that doesn’t mean he was right. I’ve grown to accept homosexuality. Now that I am catholic, I can’t simply flip my beliefs on this matter. However, the question I really have is: Am I allowed to take the Eucharist if I do not completely agree with the catechism on this matter? Am I committing heresy, even though I never said the church said it was okay to be gay? If I do not participate in homosexual acts, am I still committing a sin by not spitting on every gay I know?
Birth control. I don’t really have a problem with this. When two people have sex, the Holy Spirit comes in and makes life. That is also why it is a sin to have premarital sex. However, what about when it comes to rape? I heard it is possible to convince a rapist to use a condom before he starts. Would doing so mean the woman committed a mortal sin? Why would the Holy Spirit create life during such a horrible time, worse than premarital sex? It also doesn’t make sense that God would create life during premarital sex. I guess we can’t really know His thoughts or why he chooses certain ‘couples’ (The rapist and his victim, those who aren’t married, or those who are married) to create life with. I just find it…perplexing. I have no problem not using birth control once I’m married. I’m just confused on this.
Maybe in the end, I’ll just have to take all of this to a priest. Problem is that I have social anxiety, so the only one I feel comfortable with was the one who baptized me and lately, I’ve been feeling like a nuisance to him.