My wife and I enjoy watching some Japanese animation here and there. Over this past summer, we decided to watch a horror-themed show that where unknown forces caused people to die mysterious (and often very graphic) deaths. The show was scary, and we enjoyed the thrill of it, but in the months following, I’ve found myself having some very disturbing thoughts of violence or death.
I don’t know if the two are directly correlated, and I don’t take in a regular dose of horror shows or movies. When I was younger I enjoyed the Nightmare on Elm St. series and some of the other “cheesy 80’s” type flicks, but that’s the most I ever delved into the genre. That said, since I’ve been married the past 3 years, and my wife doesn’t typically enjoy these kinds of movies, I haven’t really watched them in the interim years. I wonder if I was previously desensitized to these types of movies and scenes, lost that callousness, and am now having a bad mental reaction to them?
It bothers me most because I’m a stay-at-home dad, and sometimes these disturbing thoughts relate to my kid. It scares me a bit, and I don’t really know what to do about it. I’m a bit concerned that if I talk to someone about it, they’ll think I’ve gone nutjob and involve the authorities. When it’s happened, I’ve prayed about it, but I could really use some advice on how to tackle these thoughts.