Hello. I just turned 20 today, but for the past couple of days I have been worrying about how I may have to tell my dad one day that I want to be a priest. I definitely feel the call to the priesthood. I can feel the call getting stronger and stronger every year. It is just a matter of time now before I figure out what religious order Jesus calls me to join. (Right now it looks like the Capuchins or Conventual Franciscans)
However I am worried about how my father would react. He is a non-practicing protestant, (but I don’t think he has any real convictions). We have never talked about faith at home. But my mom told me one day that my dad feels rejected by the Catholic church because he is not allowed to receive communion. Not only that, upon seeing in my dorm room a statue of Mary and printed cut out pictures of saints, he told my mom privately that he felt that the Church is stealing his son and in a moment of frustration said that he wished he had stopped her from raising me catholic. (My mom and my dad love each other but have a lot of contempt for each other).
I think telling him is going to be the hardest thing I will have to do in my life so far. I keep asking Mary to save a little bit of each grace from my nightly rosaries to prepare me and my dad for that day. My other worry is that he might lash out at my mom for not putting a stop to my vocation or for raising me catholic. If he is angry, I just pray that all the anger is channeled at me.
My dad is not a bad man, he is great, self-sacrificing, and loving person. I thank God that he is my dad and that he raised me with love. However, he will not be happy when I tell him this.
If anyone else can relate to this, your advice would be GREATLY appreciated.
Thank you, and a prayer would be appreciated as well.