How can I cope with my fear of Confession?


#1

Please help me…I am scared to death of confession. I literally get weak when I go. I feel shaky, dizzy, faint, nauseous, and gasping for breath. I don’t even know what my sins are. I just mention a few things and hope for the best. I can barely get the words out. Everything is seemingly a sin. I can’t tell what is mortal or venial. There’s a lot I don’t mention, because I don’t know if its a sin, or if I confessed it already, or mentioned it properly. I know I am missing a lot. I give myself too much credit. I am probably going to hell for making so many invalid confessions. I am probably excommunicated for struggling to believe this aspect of faith. I hope God is not mad at me. It really does make me ill to think of sins and go to confession. When something makes you so ill, you try to push it aside. If I was allergic to a food, I wouldn’t eat it. But this is unavoidable, so I must do it. I can’t bear the thought of going. Its so difficult. I would rather go through a major medical procedure then this. It’s less painful. I don’t hate the Church, but I can’t stand confession. I am not a God-hating individual, nor do I hate the church. I love God, Mary, the saints. I love Mass and communion. I don’t want to be this way. Am I a bad person for all of this? Am I on the road to damnation? Am I excommunicated?


#2

Hi,

You say that you hate this sacrament. What you hate is the way you feel when you receive it. You need to acknowledge that your fear is subjective. There is nothing objectively dangerous in having one’s sins forgiven.

It seems that the stating of those sins and the hearing of oneself state them to another person and the anticipation of a response could be what scares you. It would seem that somewhere in your past some experience has made you fearful of such vulnerability. You really do need to find out what it is that is really going on here.As for approaching the sacrament, you need to make a list of your sins and simply read them to the priest. But even more importantly than this, you need to focus on what the Lord was willing to endure that your sins might be forgiven.

As the result of the loss of so much blood from the scourging at the pillar, he endured a pounding headache that accompanied Him to His death. Receiving the nails into the carpal tunnels of His hands brought pain to His whole upper body. When the cross was lifted and put in place, the nails in His hands held His body up. His up-stretched arms then began to squeeze His lings and He began to gasp. So He had to push down on His crucified feet to raise His body so that He could fill His lungs with air. This caused additional pain to His feet. Such strain required additional energy and His energy was steadily decreasing from the loss of blood. Nevertheless, He maintained this agonizing routine while hanging on the cross for three hours. As He became weaker, His struggle became greater. After three hours He came to the point where He just could not raise His body one more time. Finally in that eternal moment He gave up His spirit and died, giving us life. That moment was the reason He became man. It’s eternal because it transcends time and touches every human being who has ever lived or will ever live. It’s the moment that gives us a window into what it means to be loved with a love that is infinite.

The more we reflect on this eternal moment, the more we begin to realize what it means to be loved by Him. When the priest raises his hand as he absolves us, it is really the nail-scarred hand of Jesus who is absolving us. We must never forget this. This is how to cope with your fear. As St. John says, love banishes fear.

I will remember you at 2 a.m. during my hour before the Blessed Sacrament.

Fr. Vincent Serpa, O.P.


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