i am a 19 year old female. i have struggled with lust and masturbation for a long time. At the age of 11 after being introduced to masturbation and porn by my friends, I began to masturbate and watch porn. i am happy to say i that i have now been able to fight the temptation of masturbation and watching porn. i have been clean for almost 4 months. however i still have a very lustful mindset. things on tv, music, or random thoughts cause me find myself in a lustful state. sometimes i am able to fight these thoughts, but more times than not i cant fight it and find myself submerging into these thoughts. it even causes me to aroused. i have cleaned up my life in many ways but this is one of my most difficult battles. i pray regularly, read inspirational messages and the bible 5 days a week at the least. i still need help to fight these feelings. i seen something on tv about a boy who has a “sexual demon” inside of him. is there any way that might be true for me? any advice or guidance would be helpful for me to overcome my struggles.
also, i am in college and the temptation for drinking and marijuana are frequently around me. i have stopped smoking marijuana for over 3 months but still often have the temptation to. i feel as if i’m missing out by not partying thru my college years. because i do want to have those experiences, but i know it is very wrong. i would appreciate all the help and guidance i may receive.