I thought this may be more appropriate here… seeking some of your advice, rather than asking an apologist.
I am a cradle Catholic. Like so many others, I did not really take my religion seriously or fully understand the gravity of what happens at the mass until I was in my early-mid twenties. I lived a very sinful past… breaking many of God’s commandments, receiving the Eucharist in a state of sin, viewing pornography, etc. I just wasn’t a good person.
I have since tried to make several good confessions and have even received a general confession so I can move on and be the man I want to be… forgetting my past. The problem is, my sins haunt me and I cannot get over feeling sorry for them. This bothers me so much sometimes that it strongly affects me.
I really don’t think that I am a scrupulous person and I believe that God has forgiven me. Should I embrace these sorrows as a reparation to God? When can I move on? How can I move on?