My first confession is tomorrow and I am afraid of messing it up.
I did my best to list everything I ever did wrong. Only I did not write down the number of times because I don’t remember. So I plan to say things like “a lot” or “all my life” or “fort his many years.”
I wrote more specific things rather than general things. So for example, instead of “detraction” I wrote “revealed flaws of parent without good reason.” (But does this mean I should also confess general detraction in case I detracted someone else and forgot to write it?)
Also, the Confession is VERY early in the morning tomorrow. Sometimes when I wake up early I feel like I’m in a fog and can’t focus on anything except the irritation I feel!
What if I go to confession in this state, will I be forgiven?
Ahhhh! This is so stressful.
I wish I had been Catholic all my life so that I wouldn’t have to confess years upon years of sin.
You are not alone. Millions have come to their first confession with a lifetime of sin. I have read many of your posts in the last few weeks and you have the heart and genuine wish to be forgiven. Confess what you remember and at the end of your confession tell the priest that you may have forgotten some of the sins that you have committed but that you are repentant for them. I am ashamed to admit that I left the Church for many years after having been raised Catholic. My pride got in the way of my faith and when I finally put my pride away and returned, I had 14 years worth of sin to confess. I too was afraid that I might forget some sins that I committed. I racked my brain trying to remember everything that I had done over those 14 years. I did not want to forget anything and risk something not being forgiven. I spoke with a Priest prior to confession and he told me that I needed to make a sincere confession and not withhold anything that I remembered, but that I should take peace in the knowledge that should I forget something it to would be forgiven. Examine your soul, be honest, confess what you remember but find peace in the fact that if you have earnestly confessed, God knows your heart and He knows that you are only human. There are many things that may have been forgotten over the decades. He understands that and will look at your heart and forgive you those things that you do not remember to confess. Do not ever use that to withhold confessing a particular sin, but take comfort in the fact that it is there should you legitimately forget a particular sin.
Welcome to the Church! I wish more people would come home who are like you. Your heart is where it should be and I take great joy in everything that awaits you!